Reflections

20/03/08

It’s been a tough period trying to struggle with school, work and this competitive ever since I’m into the final round. To be frank, I’m still not quite ready to accept what’s intended for us. This is my first time joining a national wide competition and I didn’t expect to have to put in so much time and effort. I should have seen it coming. It is moment to wake up and face the music. Okay, I’ve to accept and admit that I’m not quite a good time manager, neither am I a clown who can juggle well. As many of you would have already figured out, I’m in my final semester in school. Which means, schools and libraries should be my second home? I just realized that wardrobe/ makeup unit and annex building and weekends outdoor filming has unknowingly became part of me. Instead of dwelling into research work and hurrying up for my papers and visual works, I’m brain storming for idea for how to pose and props to bring along for my photo shoots. Sorry to disappoint my lecturers as I haven’t been a good student/ classmate and I know they have high hopes for me. I might not be on track for showing my work progress on time, but I promise I’ll never submit sub-standard works! Lucky for those who are having holidays and/or waiting for school results, man! “…Oh well, then again, it’s always about opportunity cost, isn’t it?”- Me telling myself. Ha-ha!

I’ve to emphasize really, am thankful for friends/ family who made the effort to sms/call/msn msg/friendster/facebook, etc to check in as and when, cos’ I really need all the encouragements and support in the midst of my crazy schedules. I am also grateful for a couple of contestants (males & females) and people who has been working with us thus far who are downright sincere about sharing useful tips and word of advice. I’m hanging on, doing my part and keeping cool.

Fortunately, I’m able to enjoy my time and keeping my head cool still with the madness. It’s always pleasurable to see myself dress stylishly and makeup beautifully by the professionals in Mediacorp, for the reason that there are things I didn’t know I can carry off, be it colors or certain style of clothes. I can be shy at times though I appear confident most of the time, and Qiuting caught me blushing when I was sharing some personally stuff (it’s just a soft toy, *giggles…) during break times. When she told me that over the MSN, it literally caused me to blush again, it’s my weak/soft side. Qiuting is rather mature for her tender age and it’s a good thing seeing that there’s someone who speaks the same language as me. She’s the diligent one, who’ll come for filming prepared. Shi Ying & Shi Qian reminded me of myself a lot when I was their age. From time to time I wished I still have their untainted minds, innocence, silly laughers, bubbly character and big curious eyes. I enjoyed talking to them particularly as I felt they are the more easy-going and friendly lot. Mable, the blur queen a.k.a baby of the group, never fails to make me laugh. She didn’t sense that we were all teasing her over some silly joke and laugh along with us at the meeting room last night. It was seriously hilarious if you have seen her facial expression then! She, of course, is another nice lady to hang out with, just like the twins. Germaine, whom I always like to disturb as an energetic bimbo is well loved by all. Always getting the attention and jumping all around, sometimes gets my head spinning. Babe, give this old auntie a break, okay? Liang Yi, I salute you! we just have to respect her for her guts and strong character. She’s not afraid to express herself and speaks what’s on her mind. She adapts fast and I believe she’ll go very far with her right attitude. As for Rachelle, this lady has a lot to say. She’s willing to try and very determined to prove her competency, which is great. I can’t imagine myself giving up school for something I want to pursue badly. It’s too big a risk for me. Maybe we should learn from her so to make this program more challenging and exciting. On top of that, I’ve to give it to the camera crew and production team with all the patient and tolerance as much as necessary towards all of 16 of us.

Lastly, there are people who will come to me and “update” me with the happenings in the group which totally left me wanting to know more. Maybe it’s human that we love to listen to gossips and find out what’s next. I’m no different so, yes please keep it coming in! Ha-ha! Is there anything that I should know?